Nobody has been able to define what it is. People have definitely expressed and penned down how it feels to be in love.
When I was with axe, I very strongly believed I was in love. But, then it all was not what I convinced myself it was. I did everything I could for him. Cards, letters, surprises, etc etc. It was never valued and I was so blind I couldn’t understand whatever I am doing the person is not worth it. I also don’t believe in big surprises, I like small things done for me with utmost love. Unfortunately, I have still to experience such affection, if at all it is written to be experienced by me.
Even after my personal experience, I can’t say that I don’t anymore believe in love. I do very much because of the people surrounding me who are addicted to it. Almost all my friends are committed. And everybody has seemed to experience those tiny special moments of romance in their relationship. I have a friend who is like right now in the process of falling in love (so does she says). Her guy is very simple, sober, patient and nice. But, he never reciprocates anything that she does for him. If she sends a romantic message to him, he doesn’t seem to understand how to reply to a female who dedicates such beautifully written quotes to you. And I am not saying that he should reply in the same manner, write some shayari in return or go ga ga over it, but atleast an acknowledgement of the same can be expected.
I also sometimes feel that I expect a lot. And so I give such full of expectation advises to my friends that they end up fighting with their respective boyfriends. I expect (if at all I find a guy and if at all he would do such things) him to give me surprise visits, if he lives away from me (like another town). I expect him to sing random songs for me. I expect him to write letters (yes love letters) to me. I expect him to bring flowers for me when he comes to meet me. I expect him to call me up in the middle of the night and tell me that he loves me. I expect him to sometimes cook for me (even if it is tea and toast or maggie or lemon juice or just bazaar se layi hui ice-cream). I expect him to dance in the rain with me (even if he doesn’t dance). I expect him to sing cheesy bollywood songs for me (even if he just can’t sing and yes it should be strictly bollywood). I expect him to show and express what he feels because that is what is going to make me feel special and wanted. And, I expect him to make me feel special.
So am I expecting a lot ?? And mind you if this is a lot, then what happens to those guys whose girlfriends want them to take them to expensive places, buy diamond rings and gift them nothing less than GUCCI. By such standards, I think I am one of the nicest females on earth. Don’t you think so? 😉