A long and hopeful post ! Hello Folks :)

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No reason.

Honestly, I am a lazy woman. A secondary reason is that I didn’t get an internet connection only until recently.

Please don’t think that I don’t like blogging. I love it. This is the reason I am not making the presentation I am supposed to make and writing this post on priority. This proves my love 🙂

This year was full of surprises. On both professional and personal fronts. I never expected Gappa would agree to marry. I also never expected that I will let her do so. But, she is happy which is keeping me sane 🙂

The wedding was such amazing fun. We danced like crazy zombies. Gappa told me that the wedding turned out to be exactly how she wanted it to be. I am glad it did. I was shit nervous about how everything would take place. But I should say my parents and certain other people surprised me pleasantly by their organisational skills. Gappa wore a pretty green and blue net lehanga for the sangeet. And a florescent green and pink lehanga for the wedding and reception. And I must say my sister has the most beautiful eyes and the most elegant smile on planet earth. She was such a perfect bride. Smiling coyly on one hand and enjoying her wedding to the fullest on the other. The sangeet was such a success that I still can’t get over it. We made a slideshow of Gappa’s pictures right from her childhood till the mehandi function. Actually, I didn’t contribute much into the same. It was Rash and Prish who did the entire work. My two baby cousins did everything from preparing the script for anchoring to putting things back in place to running around in high heels. I love these people so so much. A lot of people unfortunately missed attending the wedding as well. Gappa’s best friend, another good friend etc. but I am sure the people who did attend made sure that Gappa doesn’t feel such absence 🙂 I will upload some pictures of the wedding soon.

On the other front, Rash and I have stopped talking. Like not talking at all. I still sometimes can’t believe that. After a point of time you get so used to a person’s presence in your life, that even their absence doesn’t bother you because you never feel it. It is difficult to not be with him. When all I did in the past 4 years is to be with him. I honestly don’t know how he feels about it. I assure myself by assuming that he feels the same. But, I know that I have some of my life’s most beautiful and treasured memories with him. And I am glad that I have the same with him and nobody else. You are still my best friend Rash. You will always be. And I know you are reading this and I hope this brings a smile to your face. I also hope that everything that you remember about me in the times to come always brings a smile to your face. Because a smile on my lips plays as soon as you come to my mind. I have a lot of things to say to you. It deserves a post in itself. Please do read it.

On professional front, yes this comes last in priority because I have no clue as to what I am doing by practicing as a tax lawyer (No, I won’t file your returns. Lawyers don’t do that, please excuse!). But, it is paying the bills and I actually have a decent boss and a very amazing senior associate to learn from. So, as long as this works fine, I think I will stick. I completed one year of pretending to be working on 16th June, 2015. Yes, I need to record that. Deal with it. I hope I can keep on pretending though I do not consider myself to be pretentious at all. *Fingers crossed*.

The only thing that I need to start doing now is travel. Visit places. I really wish to start working on this front too. I am glad to have made a new girlfriend *touchwood*. And I really love her. I hope it stays the same way. I didn’t expect to make such close friends in Delhi. It happened on its own and it is great 🙂 ( No, it doesn’t mean I don’t miss you Rash, you have a place of your own in my heart and it will always be yours. Don’t make that face).

I think this is enough for the first post of the year. I will be back soon 🙂

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The Gobbledygook !!

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I am 24. Going to be 25 in six months or so.

A small interjection : While working on one of my drafts soon after I joined, I typed “sex” instead of “six” and submitted the same to a senior 😮 So every time somebody uses the six, all I am reminded of is sex :-/ Shit happens.

Coming back to turning 25 soon. I think I am at a good place in life now. I am happy, I do as I like and most of all I am with people I wish to be. I might shift with Mani next year when her college gets over. That ways I would get to live with a person of my choice.

Mostly, people consider their college or school days as best. Something they would get back to if given a choice. I don’t think so. I think this life with a job in hand and a control over your life is what I would call the best for me. I still have the people I would want to be with in college. So, no worries with respect to that. A job might come with responsibilities, sometimes it annoys you, sometimes it just tires you out. But, isn’t it similar to having a relationship. Whatever issues it comes with, it still offers stability, certainty and a sweet reliability (not the dependent kind of).

Recently, the Dean of Graduate Admissions of the New York University visited our firm for a presentation on the various LLM programs they offer. He told us about the NYU culture, the courses, the fee structure, the scholarships etc. I made up my mind to apply for an LLM in International Taxation some three-four years down the line. But, the fees is a whopping 35 lakhs (and mind you this is just the tuition fees). And, getting a scholarship is no easy job. I realized this is too expensive a degree to be brought back home. And anyways, I wanted to go to New York because of the obsession I have with Carrie Bradshaw and Sex and the City. What If I can’t go to NYU, but I can definitely go to New York 😀

Such silly obsessions we have. Now, I must warn you this is an extremely silly, no topic post. I am just typing whatever is coming to my mind. Oh yes! Did I tell you, the Dean was cute and tall 😀 I don’t have any good looking guys in office. Most of them are married or not good looking or both 😦

I have asked Rash to get over with this judiciary exam business as early as possible. We have so many preparations to make for Gappa’s wedding. And look at him, he is studying 😮 I don’t like it a bit.

I was watching Devil wears Prada (yet again) yesterday, and I realized people make such amazing efforts to dress up. I don’t even want to shower and look at the women in this city, they look so chic all the time. I feel like a nomad in front of them. And, then I expect some attention from the opposite gender. Sometimes, I am in awe of a woman’s pretty face, and that being a woman myself, what would happen to men in such situations?

I feel very positive nowadays. I don’t even feel like doing evil stuff to anybody. I think I am settling down, sort of calming down and melting in slowly. I am liking this phase of my life. I just hope it is here to stay. Because I have too many plans for too many people and I would prefer to be in this happy state to execute the same.

Oh! By the way, I totally forgot. Gorgeous had a baby boy in March this year. He is just perfect. I call him toothless 😀 He is the prettiest baby I have ever seen and he makes me want to have babies too. But, Rash says I am going too fast and that he doesn’t like such changes in me. He liked the baby hater in me. But, toothless is so cute, I feel like gobbling him up. He has these perfect doe eyes, and when he smiles there is twinkle in his eyes and his cheeks turn all warm and red. In short, I love him.

Do you know where to get reasonably priced over coats from in Delhi? Please let me know. I know I know my whole point of writing this post was to ask you guys this question. Selfish. Bad. terrible. But I need it and I don’t want to spend a lot of money.

Will meet you guys next week. See ya till then. Have an amazing week 😀

That all which needs to be posted :D

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There are lot many things which needs to be posted here.

The first of many is that I shifted in a flat. It is a 2 BHK spacious third floor house. I share the house with another female. I wanted to shift in a single one room place, but right now I don’t have the money for the same. Also, Gappa and Rash voted against it as I am new in the city and it is not safe. But, I will shift in a single one room (one BHK pto be precise) next year around the same time. Because, I have huge space sharing issues. We had single occupancy rooms in the hostel all the five years of college. I have absolutely no habit of sharing a room with anybody. Hence, the space sharing issues.

This year brought a lot of good news *anti-jinx*. I joined my first job. I passed the stupid Bar Council of India exam. I graduated successfully and even went to attend my Convocation (though I do not appreciate the decision at all), Gappa’s wedding date got fixed, our house got the dining table it has been waiting for so long, Momsy and Popsy are learning to use a android phone and I have lost weight 😀

Gappa got a smartphone for dad as his birthday present. Dad’s birthday and Rash’s birthday fall almost together. I have decided what to get dad for the birthday. I am still going about how to celebrate Rash’s birthday as it is the first time we are together on his birthday with money in our pockets 😛 I have thought about a lot of stuff. But, I can’t pen it down here. One, because Rash reads the blog and two after reading he gets all worked up and gets into his “we will not spend a single penny without any reason”. But he doesn’t understand that I have to sing happy birthday for him in my high pitched nazel driven voice 😀

Next important thing on my to do list is shopping and organizing Gappa’s wedding. I am experiencing certain lack of excitement from both the sides. I don’t know why. But, I am crazily excited. I want everything to be perfectly done for her. Why not? I have been collecting trousseau pictures from the first year of college for her. What all she might need? How she needs to do her hair? Should we put gajra or keep it a bit modern? Can we modernise the Sangeet look and keep the ceremonial pheras look traditional? What food are we going to keep on the menu? Her henna designs for both hands and legs? The photographer? The decorators? Gossshhh !! (The list is endless). I get so excited sometimes, I feel all the energy inside me is being pulled out by some invisible force and I just can’t take it if anybody (even the bride) goes against how I want to do stuff because her wedding has been my dream all along, how can I let somebody else (just because they are older to me doesn’t mean they have a better choice) decide for her what and how everything should be done? Obviously, Gappa’s wedding deserves a special series of posts all together. Which is soon going to come 😀

Apart from Gappa, my favorite cousin is too getting married. I swear I hate that two of the most precious women of my life have decided to take the plunge together and I am scared that everything should work out well for them 🙂 But, yes I have so much to do for the favorite cousin as well.

I recently read a book by Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni. It is called “Sister of my heart”. I just love the way some people define cities in their books that you fall in love with the place even without having visited it. This is what this book did to me. It made me fall in love with Calcutta. The story of two sisters (not really bound by blood) but are anyways a part and parcel of each other’s life. It brought back to life my forgotten and lost belief that there is nothing like unconditional love. That if somebody loves you, no matter how you are, no matter how they are, they will always understand you. That when you take your life’s decisions a lot many people get affected by it. That sometimes it is the right decision to let go of your happiness for the space that it leaves is always filled by double the happiness that you let go of. That it only needs some time and patience for things to fall in place for you. That everybody deserves to be loved and that sisters are the best thing that can happen to you. 🙂

I have got a new book today. It is “The Lowland” by Jhumpa Lahiri. I hope it turns out to be good.

This is my first weekend post. I hope to keep the promise and post regularly. Tada !! 😀

Back and forth

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I have been planning to write a blog post from a very long time now. Feels like a century or so. I have become way too lazy, I should say I have become Rash like. Sometimes, he just doesn’t want to move his ass.

Anyways, so how are you people? I have been on a lot and I have decided to take matters in my hand now and deal with it more Sanity like as against Rash like.

I will (try) write a post every week now. No matter what happens, no matter if I want to sleep, no matter whatsoever. I will read posts, I will write posts and this is how it is going to be. *Nervous* *Fingers Crossed*

Winters have hit Delhi. I wear sweater to my office daily and the chilly wind in the morning after getting up and while returning from office is sending shivers down my spine. It is only November and I already can’t take it. Only god can help me during December and January.

I need to buy some woollens for myself. I am not at all prepared for the Delhi winter and I don’t want to fall sick with Gappa’s wedding preparations coming up.

Oh! I missed giving you the news. Gappa, my Gappa, the cuddly babyish face, the pretty long hair, the elder sister I so authoritatively scold, the graceful kathak dancer, the always ready to fight crackpot, the love of my life and of course the sister of my heart is getting married.

The date is set. Actually, nothing apart from the date is set. We need to shop for everything and anything. I need to show all my organisational skills that I have never showed anywhere. So people, please be kind to me and send me all the suggestions with respect to all the wedding preparations.

Woosshh !! Thinking about the wedding gives me goosebumps. I have absolutely no clue how is everything going to happen. Going further, I wrote the last post from the room of my paying guest in Delhi where I stayed for two and a half months. This post I am writing today is from the flat I have shifted to and I just now realised that this is my third month in the house I have so lovingly started calling home.

There are a lot of things that have happened recently. I attended my Convocation with Momsy. Popsy couldn’t come. I also managed to fare through the Bar Council of India’s exam and I am assuming I will soon get my registration certificate as an Advocate.

But, nothing feels different. In the mid of next month, I will complete six months in the office. My first job. My first six months. And there is nothing exciting about it.

I think I am zoning out now. It happens to me nowadays. In the middle of a client meeting or a call or a discussion or just plain reading, I simply and completely zone out. I dread the day somebody asks me something in the middle of such meetings and I will be like, “Umm I am sorry. I didn’t hear any of it. I was busy floating in a parallel world”

With the promise of a new post every week, I will take your leave now 😀

First Day, First Job :D

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I joined the Delhi office of the law firm I am working for yesterday. Day before I wasn’t so excited to join. I have no idea why? But then, yesterday after the introductory session and other sessions, I realized I have so many knowledgeable people around me and so many things to learn. The people are warm, humble and most importantly, not crazy. Yes, I mean they use logic and reason and also expect others to do the same 😀

I am happy and yes I think I am satisfied. I have lots and lots of learning to do and I think I am quite ready for it. However, I still feel like an intern while in the office. The feeling of being an Associate hasn’t dawned on me yet. But anyways, I am liking whatever I am experiencing and I am looking forward to many more good learning experiences.

So Gappa sent me this love letter before a night before I joined the office. And I love her for this and of course many more things 😛 I am copying the letter here (I hope you don’t mind it Gappa), because I just want to post it, you know. Maybe because of the magical pull of public display of affection 😀

To my little darling,

I thought I should write to you because you might get bored listening to all the good old things and I might get choked up in the process.

Love, tomorrow you start a new phase of your life,something you might have waited for through all the growing years. Sometimes would have waited even more desperately when in bad money crunch or some conditions at home.
I just want wish you all the very best in everything you do at your work starting tomorrow. May you enjoy learn and grow in the process. There will be times when the feeling of being financially independent will be overwhelming, at the other times it might make you sick. None of them will last forever. Just keep in mind work is a part of life just like eating and sleeping are and for people like us it is something that keeps the spirits up. Make sure you give it your 100% in the starting years, do not bother about the money as long as it pays your bills in the first few years. Learn and absorb as much as you can.
Now you will meet new people, intelligent, over smart, workaholics, time killers….a whole bunch of all of them. Take time to judge them and do not trust easily. I write this because it is difficult to find like minded people in offices.Try and talk to everybody. I am very bad at it, but sure you can make good conversations.  You might be lucky to get guidance from wonderful seniors and lovely colleagues, but maintain distance unless you are too sure of them. 
Take care of your health. Work might pull you to easier eating options and junk. Try to indulge less in junk and more towards healthier options. If you cant cook at all, make sure you have your fill of salads and fruits. Try a little harder to improve on taking care of yourself. Take out a little time for exercise, make exercise a schedule atleast on weekends and drink lots of water.Try to drink more water before lunch and make sure you drink 2 liters of water in office hours.
Please always be alert of your safety,make sure you leave work on time. If late try to reach straight home after work. Be careful while walking on roads, do not keep your eyes on your mobile while commuting. Please be aware of your surroundings.
Make savings a habit, I am sure you already do that but just wanted to emphasize. Take time off when you get a chance, and indulge in something that makes you happy. An art, craft, yoga, dancing, singing or reading. Shop for lovely stuff in Delhi and bring some for me too. 😛
May you have a wonderful and happy work life! 🙂
God bless you Sweetheart! All the very best! 🙂
Love, 
Didi 
So this mail like totally pulled it off for me. I was so happy to read it. I didn’t reply at the same time because I wanted to write patiently and when my mind was at peace.
To my everything,
I don’t get bored while listening to you. I interrupt because I know you might get choked up in the process 😀
As I said, I was not really excited about joining the office. I missed home, you, toothless and everything else. But then, I think it will get easier day by day. Strangers might become friends and all I need to have is optimism. It has just been two days of work (not really work) and I am already looking forward to the 15th August weekend so that I can come back home. Explains my state, pretty much, eh? 😛
I will. I will try and learn and absorb and remember as much as I can. Because I know this is a wonderful opportunity and I would be a total idiot to let it go waste. I promise you, that maybe it will take a little time and patience for me to get into the work mode from the student mode, but I will never ever disappoint you. I will never let yo down. 
Believe it or not, but this is the biggest lesson that college has taught me. To not trust people easily. I will not make the same mistakes again, the ones I made while in college when it came to being friends with the wrong people.
I will definitely take care of myself. After gaining 5-6 kg’s, I am far more terrified than you are. Imagine not being able to wear all your clothes only because you have stupidly and very foolishly gained weight. As soon as I shift at the right place, I will eat healthy and live healthy. Promise 😀
I am always alert. And I never keep my eyes on the cellphone while walking on the road or otherwise as well. Who told you that? I always move in the city tightly clutching my handbag and looking at every person like I can read their minds and know what their next action is going to be. In fact please do not worry about my safety. I may act foolish sometimes, but I am not one, atleast entirely 😛
Yes. I will save and then we will buy a home with a kitchen garden 😀 And you can plant all the roses, lilies, sunflowers, aloe vera et al. We will also have french windows and a terrace garden too. We will buy a new dining table and momsy’s favorite sofa set. 😀
yayayayayayay !! We are the coolest 😛
Love you.